Foster failure :-)

Well it seems that my recent blogging activity has been about as erratic as my emotions.  As some of my coworkers, friends and family know, the last 48 hours or so have been a roller coaster of emotions, which ultimately culminated in...A FOSTER FAILURE!

On Friday afternoon, I received an email from the head of the rescue saying there was an approved adoption application for Sweetie.  Upon reading that email I felt like I was going to cry, vomit and poop my pants all at the same time.  Fortunately, only the crying part happened and I immediately ran to Tamra's office (Tamra = foster mentor/crazy girl that got me in to this!) for advice.   Tamra was not there, so I proceeded to ask every person I came in contact with (probably about 20 people throughout the afternoon) for advice on the situation.   However, I knew that even if one hundred people all told me the same answer, I had to do some soul searching and decide myself.

On Friday evening, I had a moment in which I imagined what it might be like to be a parent to a two legged child.  I looked at Sweetie and thought: "I never want her to be sad, lonely or in pain a day in her life."  While I knew there were likely many houses that could become a home to Sweetie, I knew I had to be the one to make sure her sad days were over (although Sweetie is so chilax I'm not sure she has had many sad days).  To make a long story (with LOTS of tears) short, it had to be me.

So it's official.  Sweetie is now Sweetie Brown (not Sweet Brown - ain't nobody got time for that!) and she will spent the rest of her days with me.  Hopefully those days will actually be years.  However, whether they are days, months or years, I will strive to make them as wonderful as possible for Sweetie.  I'm not sure who posted this comment on my Facebook, but they said that Sweetie will..." make the good days great and the bad days better."  In the 3 weeks I've had her, that has been so true and I'm so thankful that I stumbled across this wonderful lady.

To celebrate the wonderful day (officially 3/22/13), Sweetie and I made a trip to Mutts and Co, where she got her official (steelers) name tag (and a nice blue rain coat since she basically goes everywhere with me).  And at the end of the weekend, I have one tired and happy pup to call my own (and KCH is giving me the stink eye right now...) :-)